My goal is to be soft and calm

The more people shout out into my face the more I want to stay calm and be as soft as I can, it feel like I'm looking at someone who is about getting angry and I want myself to be kind of different from them.. It's like you have two person in you, one who is outside doing anything what inside tells you to do, and I've now realized how much important meditation is. It's only YOU (inside) can hold you back when you are about to lose your mind.

at the end of the day I always look at the mirror before going to bed, and say "thank you" to myself for being soft and calm, I always tell my inside that I want to be diffirent, I want to stand for who I am.